Personal Highs, Lows and Triumphs in 2018

 In blog, Chakra Wisdom Oracle

2018 has been a year of highs and lows. I signed two great book deals AND I lost my beloved 13 year old Whippet Franklin.

I worked on the books as Frank slowly deteriorated, it was a time of painful denial. As I wrote, Frank was dying and I did my best to pretend he would be okay.

The last few days of September in Asheville, NC were August hot, and Frank luxuriated in the sunshine I had taken him away from in my move from Los Angeles three years earlier. That final day held a gut wrenching grief that I had feared when the moment came.

Death changes you. It softens and deepens you. It makes you recognize just how deeply you can and do love.

Thirteen years earlier, my beloved dog Billy died days before we brought the rescued Franklin Delano Roosevelt home. I was in grief over that loss.

I looked at Frank, this 4 month old puppy and told him I could never love him as much as Billy. He looked at me with the loving eyes that never faded, and time proved me right.

I did not love Frank as much as Billy, I loved him more.

As we look back at the challenges, triumphs, pain and pleasure…my three this year are:

  • I now know what it feels like to be a truly successful writer/author
  • I was profoundly loved by a small creature that hung on longer than predicted, not because I loved him, but because he loved me
  • We can only honor a loss, by investing in love again

What are your look back experiences? What is your story?

Today, as my gift to you – is the recording of my reading Penelope and Pickle – the original fable that inspired the Grief Card.

If you like it – You can purchase the full fable collection until 12/9/18 at 90% off! That’s right The retail price of $197.00 is now $19.97.


See you in a few days.


P.S. I’d love to hear about your challenges, triumphs and pain and pleasure?   What is your story? Please let me know in the comments below.

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  • Bev Marks Pevlin

    1. I now know the importance of family (this realization comes when what was once a huge vibrant family has dwindled due to death after death).
    2. I now understand it is up to me to cherish my memories but not to live in them.
    3. I now know how difficult it is to be a writer.
    4. I now know a true feeling of accomplishment. I have completed my dreadful first draft.
    5. I now know I need to bathe in courage, conviction and commitment this is the way I move forward.
    6. I now know life is meant to be lived.

    • Tori Hartman

      Lovely Bev! First drafts are That first realization that you have completion in you!! xo Tori

  • Liberty F.

    My heart goes out to you on the loss of your beloved family member. I lost my black lab Odie this year too and his loss made me cherish and value life and death so much more.
    My challenges, triumphs, pain and pleasure this year were:
    Accepting my reality and my involvement in it. This was very hard for me as I really was forced to understand what pride and ego are. Story behind this is, the Victim card out of my deck literally vanished on February 15th. I still continued using my deck just thinking I lost it. This was during what I like to refer to as a Tower moment. I continued to focus on myself had a few set backs, but took the responsibility and learned from them. Exactly 8 months to the day on October 15th my car had a shattered windshield and repeating numbers showed up all day long. I was sitting in my house and decided that night to talk to my cards. The Victim card was back. It wasn’t telling me that I had been a victim, but it was acknowledging that I understood now that no matter how easy it is to point the finger I can’t stay in that mentally restrictive energy. Not only did I connect with Spirit this year, I woke up to the call and you have shown me on this path. I am grateful for being chosen by the great spirits in these cards to receive their messages and the direction that they have given me. Your work and messages have definitely brought me Peace this year, though it was a hard long road. Many blessings for 2019!

  • Michael

    Gosh, when words seem inadequate and self questioning attempts trip and vanish on their way to the moment.

    When you realise blame and whyfors are smokescreens to the answers, yet the answers don’t fill the void of the question.

    My near death moment was 1976 and I have considered myself lucky and thankfull.

    Strange how severe emotional hits arrive in a short space of time, seemingly from nowhere and the enduring memory of being in foetal position, the invisible sword twisting inside.

    Pleased that time has maybe not healed, but distanced the grief of my dark period and that self realizations and a link to ones subconcious can be made by questioning the self in ‘the third person’.

    Tarot was a start, but am looking forward to prying open the box a little more with help.

    I have just received my deck and have the toolkit book on the way.

    • Tori Hartman

      Hi Michael –
      Very well stated.. answers don’t fill the void… and spot on. A well analyzed problem is a a well analyzed problem.. and yet the actual healing process is the complete opposite of the way we have approached healing to this point. I think you’ll find the free 7 part video course on the Chakra Wisdom Oracle Cards – ignore all the sales parts, the info it really good and will give you deeper insights. It’s at – click the FREE course button. Thank you for your insights. xo Tori

  • Margaret Tippett

    I have been following your posts about losing your beloved Frank…and i am truly sorry for your loss. My oldest granddaughter age 13 suddenly lost her beloved horse overnight in late summer due to an unusual ailment. Then around Thanksgiving her cat was killed in front of their home with the driver failing to stop and notify the family. She is now severely depressed and my daughter had to seek professional help for her just yesterday. The therapist realized her depression was over the loss of these 2 animals. She is just beginning the process of grief added by the fact that she is a young teen girl going through various hormonal changes. We are very lucky that a friend alerted her school to her dark posts the prior evening. Her healing is going to be a long process. I am sorry that i just now saw your post about your discount which ended on the 9th. I will continue to keep you in prayer and ask that you do the same for my beautiful granddaughter Arianna❤

    • Tori Hartman

      Hi Peggy –
      I’m so grateful to hear about your granddaughter! I’m not sure what ended on the 9th 🙂 Contact and Elizabeth can help you. So glad to see you here. And more importantly to hear your news about Arianna. Sending love, Tori

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