Why I Quit My Business
For nearly 10 years I continually, and I mean 10 – 16 hours a day, pushed the boulder up the hill to send out emails, free content, downloads and newsletters. NON-stop.
I took classes on how to automate, run campaigns and get that “four hour” work week – which became 4 hours of work into each hour.
I outsourced, brought people in and ultimately did most of it myself.
There were endless emails from clients, most happy, but the few nasty ones were, well nasty. And one day, I burnt out.
All I wanted was to work with the Chakra Wisdom Cards and show others too. I loved teaching them, and working with them.
I stopped selling the candles and jewelry… and focused on my life. It’s not that I didn’t want to work with others, I wanted it to matter.
This morning my friend Tina posted a note on Facebook that inspired me to write this:
Tina: how much do you consider what YOU want vs. what other people want FROM you when determining what you are offering? When you are looking at what’s next?
I can’t worry about that loop anymore. It’s endless. I am working on the next deck that matters to me. I no longer listen to those who are unhappy with what I offer or how I present it. I am charging higher prices, not because of the cliche’ that I’m worth it, but I finally have learned that… damnit my clients are. I don’t want to make it affordable. I want to make it nearly impossible so they can stretch into who they need to be.
We all have dreams. Each of us. We all want something deeply, even if we don’t know it in this moment.
Years ago, before he died, my father gifted me $10,000. Because he knew I was going to need a new car, as my Honda was 12 years old at the time.
He asked me what I was going to buy.
A new Mercedes, I replied.
They’re EXPENSIVE. His admonishing tone was just enough to let me know he disapproved.
I took a deep breath, and firmly replied: “I know.
We never spoke another word about it. He passed away 18 months later; and my Honda passed away within months of his death.
I had saved up quite a bit of money by this time, and in grief, I hunted down and found my Mercedes. It was a new 2002 Black C320 Mercedes, and it was magical.
The day I drove it off the lot, I decided on the curvy scenic Mulholland Drive as my route home.
As I took a curve, music blaring, sunroof open and inhaling the sage in the air, I could see my father laughing in delight in the seat next to me…
To this day I have never regretted that purchase.
I can look back and see that nothing was going to keep me from that Mercedes. I loved it. I needed it at the time – if nothing else but to show my father that it was only money. It was the experience of life I sought. Not the car – that was a symbol of where I was going internally.
I learned that once you arrive at internal riches, it doesn’t matter what car you drive…
You see, all parents want their kids to surpass them. At the same time, they want them to be safe. So it’s easy to see how fears are inadvertently passed on.
What I teach is the tools to see these fears, and use them to grow.
Not everyone can get this, and that’s okay.
I still do.
Remember this: If something is important to you, then you will find a way, if not, you’ll find an excuse.
It took me a long time to get to this place. Sometimes while I like something, it’s not really where I want to be. When I looked at a price as the reason not to do something, truthfully, it simply wasn’t something I wanted to do.
And I had to learn to get honest with myself. I woke up in California more than once with this declaration echoing inside: This is not what I want.
I wanted to write. I want to support and nurture people who want to develop their intuition; and I do it with the Chakra Wisdom Cards. Period.
What I wrote earlier:
I am charging higher prices, not because of the cliche’ that I’m worth it, but I finally have learned that… damnit my clients are. I don’t want to make it affordable. I want to make it nearly impossible so they can stretch into who they need to be.
That is who I am. I am no longer scattered in 20 directions. I am a writer and creator. And I love my peeps.
If you’d like to know more about what I do or who I am, check out my website: ToriHartman.com
And I am teaching my first, and perhaps only Level One Chakra Wisdom Card Class in a few weeks. If it calls to you, I hope to meet and work with you. If not, I send you light to find your “mercedes” whatever that is for you.
Much love and light on your journey.
PS Here’s the link to take the Chakra Wisdom Oracle Card – Level One – Interpreter class (and yes, there are 3 more levels, including Multi-Generational Healing)
PPS Zeenah would be mad if I didn’t tell you that there are payment plans… 🙂